My thesis concept came out of my personal interest of learning about how my childhood trauma impacted the way I handle daily events. Through therapy and personal research, I learned that the way I function in many environments is a direct result of my traumatic childhood. Being an overly prepared caretaker, analyzing all danger constantly, and remaining emotionally numb were a few successful methods I learned in order to survive. Even though the trauma is over in many regards, I still find myself using these methods and as a result, repeating a very dangerous cycle that I previously thought I had escaped. I want to learn how to identify my defense mechanisms and let go of them in order to lead a healthier life.